today i will write about the sorrow so what is really hiding  behind  the sorrow is it because of a love loneliness or depression maybe could be both of them because the are related to each other  and they can be a part of our life sometimes it is hard to express our feelings and other times when we reveal our feelings we feel exposed even if we fall in love and then we are hurt by  love not exactly by love  but by someone  who can't  love someone else someone whose heart is  made of stone it has thorns if you touch  his heart  then you will know then you re gonna bleed and cry all these sadness  causes in the heart and the head so much pain and confusion because you don't know what and how to escape all this pain and torment  and i feel it every single day what i suppose to do the only way is to try  to forget but i know it is pretty hard to erase  bad memories from the head but what keeps us alive is the hope we have inside that  there will come a day with  happiness and the tears you shed will never appear again in your eyes i feel so sad inside there are times  that i want to cry and other times to close my eyes and fall asleep just  to forget  how it is when i wake up every morning the sorrow it is impossible to be hidden especially when  the pain is so big and obvious then you  become weak tired and depressed and maybe you lead yourself to commit suicide when you ve lost the only thing that used to make you happy and smile every day and now every thing has  faded around you i am the only one that knows  myself very well. i'm so sad and this is getting worse day by day. there is always  a light behind the darkness and it is hard to find it without having find your way out of this endless dark it's killing me every single day feeling like that the only way to save me is to take me hand hold me in your arms and love me forever . today  i want to  say something new but not so good  all these days are the same to me it seems like i ve lost what  used to make me happy the smile from my face what is really the most important thing in this life be lonely or not and what if you fall in love then  your heart  is gonna be broken   and then dying for a love that it doesn't worth killing yourself  is not a solution but at the same time it is a ransom from your pain  when you re losing your mind you can't think clearly i personally don't know how to feel about what s happening i can't help myself why my psychology is getting down what happened to me it is like i fell from somewhere and i ve lost the strength to fight for what i am dreaming of. when sorrow  becomes sickness you end up losing your  mind then you try to search for a way out of this path and finally you realize that  you can't you    just can't pull yourself out of it this the dead end you are gonna live without passing it.love is an emotional in the mind and loneliness is like a slow death so i don't know what's best fall in love or  be alone for a whole life it seems that i still haven't the right answer to give about it but anyway i don't care nothing i think the only that can make a human really happy is to be successful  and gain fame and admiration concerning to the erotic sector i better  not to say more about it  because i m wasting  my precious time talking  about it  this is  the reality we can't change it