Σάββατο 7 Δεκεμβρίου 2019
Τρίτη 3 Δεκεμβρίου 2019
walking for hours into the dark unknown destination searching for the lost part of myself i am standing for hours and hours waiting for the bright light of the moon to shed some light into this endless darkness does anyone know anything? i am passing through this darkness like a ghost my heart is so broken and weak to withstand so much suffering not knowning where to go i am getting closer to the fall that will suck me and take me away from here since the time has come i said to myself are you ready for this one now? a scream through the wild flames of the burning fire that engulf and burn everything around me my heart is burning alive but i still breath flames wrap me around i m trapped into the fire im waiting for you to come and save give me your hand like an angel does save me from this torment im suffering and bleeding and it hurts so much i put myself into here just to see how it is to feel like that i imagine all these i create pictures in my head i create my own world in my head i don't wanna see the reality how it is because this reality is cruel like the people of today i still try to erase what has left inside here just to be able to move on in my life.Furthermore i would like to add something about what is love and how the people use this feeling most of us say that love hurts and makes you cry but it's not love that makes us feel sad but are the people around others who don't have a heart to feel and give and the bring only pain to the other people some they just don't know to love they don't respect the only thing thing they do is to cause pain sorrow in someone else's life .where is the true redemption is it hiding in death or in life who knows. i was born to live in the world of lie this is not the real one so fuck all these lies noone wants to see the truth the way it is.I discover different feelings when i am listening to a sad song it's not only because of a song but it's the way i feel inside and i have to confess that i feel so sad even if i try to hide or not it's so obvious so visible even if the other people can see the sorrow in my eyes sometimes i feel confused all these memories are coming back in my head even if i tried to bury them .life is like the river that flows quickly and then a day will run dry without warning us and love has two aspects the one that will make you fly in the clouds and the other one that will break your hear and make you bleed and maybe cut your veins .i have my own theory for both of life and love because this has to do with what i believe about it
Σάββατο 30 Νοεμβρίου 2019
Παρασκευή 29 Νοεμβρίου 2019
Τετάρτη 27 Νοεμβρίου 2019
Τρίτη 26 Νοεμβρίου 2019
autumn came the sky became black the leaves fall from the trees the melancholy of the weather came the tears are falling down just like the raindrops i feel so melancholic and sad again only love could take this sorrow away from my face and erase the pain from my heart the cold will soon to freeze my heart again i will die again and maybe reborn then i know i won't survive through all this cold without having a piece of a warm love when you watch the leaves fall you will know that i have started to fade again i am so effected by the weather changes and my mood changes the same i hate it if you see the ssky cry you will know that i cry too because you are not here to stop the the pain i feel inside and if you see the sky turning into black you will know that i live into the darkness of sorrow the sun won't be there to shed light in your way. i feel a huge disappointment this world has nothing to offer me i feel frustrated . she could not understand what was the thing that terrified her most was the darkness or maybe she won't find the way out of this endless darkness
Πέμπτη 7 Νοεμβρίου 2019
i 'm done with the memories of the past i froze the feeling of th desire to fall in love i don't want it in my life because i found this love and admiration in jared's leto eyes and face he is so special and beautiful just like an angel these eyes and this smile his voice is so amazing he is a great singer actor and the best human personality in this world he makes everything look so beautiful all this beauty that jared has inside his soul and from outside is so obvious so real it's like i fell in love with him but this is something else something different he deserves much more than he gives i wish all the other men would be just like jared he is a shining star the only real angel upon the earth
Τετάρτη 30 Οκτωβρίου 2019
Τετάρτη 9 Οκτωβρίου 2019
today i will write about the sorrow so what is really hiding behind the sorrow is it because of a love loneliness or depression maybe could be both of them because the are related to each other and they can be a part of our life sometimes it is hard to express our feelings and other times when we reveal our feelings we feel exposed even if we fall in love and then we are hurt by love not exactly by love but by someone who can't love someone else someone whose heart is made of stone it has thorns if you touch his heart then you will know then you re gonna bleed and cry all these sadness causes in the heart and the head so much pain and confusion because you don't know what and how to escape all this pain and torment and i feel it every single day what i suppose to do the only way is to try to forget but i know it is pretty hard to erase bad memories from the head but what keeps us alive is the hope we have inside that there will come a day with happiness and the tears you shed will never appear again in your eyes i feel so sad inside there are times that i want to cry and other times to close my eyes and fall asleep just to forget how it is when i wake up every morning the sorrow it is impossible to be hidden especially when the pain is so big and obvious then you become weak tired and depressed and maybe you lead yourself to commit suicide when you ve lost the only thing that used to make you happy and smile every day and now every thing has faded around you i am the only one that knows myself very well. i'm so sad and this is getting worse day by day. there is always a light behind the darkness and it is hard to find it without having find your way out of this endless dark it's killing me every single day feeling like that the only way to save me is to take me hand hold me in your arms and love me forever . today i want to say something new but not so good all these days are the same to me it seems like i ve lost what used to make me happy the smile from my face what is really the most important thing in this life be lonely or not and what if you fall in love then your heart is gonna be broken and then dying for a love that it doesn't worth killing yourself is not a solution but at the same time it is a ransom from your pain when you re losing your mind you can't think clearly i personally don't know how to feel about what s happening i can't help myself why my psychology is getting down what happened to me it is like i fell from somewhere and i ve lost the strength to fight for what i am dreaming of. when sorrow becomes sickness you end up losing your mind then you try to search for a way out of this path and finally you realize that you can't you just can't pull yourself out of it this the dead end you are gonna live without passing it.love is an emotional in the mind and loneliness is like a slow death so i don't know what's best fall in love or be alone for a whole life it seems that i still haven't the right answer to give about it but anyway i don't care nothing i think the only that can make a human really happy is to be successful and gain fame and admiration concerning to the erotic sector i better not to say more about it because i m wasting my precious time talking about it this is the reality we can't change it
Κυριακή 6 Οκτωβρίου 2019
the sorrow and pain are drowning me day by day i can't breathe anymore i see it every single day and night no life to live anymore the poison of hate has destroyed a part of my heart so why don't kill it and bury it under the ice stop hurting me the sky is bleeding again just like my heart and it s crying shedding his tears on the ground just like my tears that are falling down on the floor. Will it ever end all this sorrow or do i have to die dark days are here again just to remind me how my life is and will be forever that will lead to depression sooner or later if you look in my eyes will you see it is it obvious or not? i ask myself what''s going wrong with you and i still have the answer i m looking for what the hell is going on with me i feel i ve lost myself nobody can save me i m the only that can save me but it seems there is no way out for me to escape this path the path of sorrow that brings the pain in my body take me away take me away take me away!!!!!!!!!!!!!! from this cruel world . i have so many things to say and write that's why i will keep on writing about the things i feel inside my heart and what creates these feelings inside i try to get over the bad things that happened but they are coming constantly in my head i think they will be erased only the day that i won't exist i wish i had more happy memories to keep in my head i feel sad almost every single day only my favorite music and singer make me a little happy but deep inside i feel empty emptiness is the worst feeling more than the feeling of sorrow do you know how it is not to feel nothing that means that your heart is so broken and that there is no feeling anymore inside here it's like someone took it from you i really don't know how to feel no longer anger or destroy everything around me? should i be good or bad with the other people who constantly treating me awful like a piece of shit they talk badly to me they offend . i don't want these kind of people in my life i will kick their asses away the fucking idiots who think they are smarter than me but to be honest they don't because nobody is perfect not even me i run out of words right now but tomorrow i hope i find something to write because i haven't finish yet . i think i have become depressing for some reason the things i say all this negativity and pessimism and the frustration the bad treatment from the others do you know how many times i had thought of killing myself today the morning that i woke up i was ready to cry again when all this end when? when the depression finds you weak will kill you for sure only the strong will survive through this situation can your silent heart scream and say stop hurting me can you feel the pain you cause when you break a heart do you know how it is to be like that waking up and sleeping with the pain inside the heart and tears in the eyes this is what you left behind you and me . what will happen if depression comes in my life i suppose i will totally lose myself i ll be drowned in this feeling there will be no way out of this and then who's gonna save me it's time for me to leave it behind i have to find the courage to fight for my my life try to be strong but how i can do it while iam so weak inside and that it seems how i can help myself to change it how i can prevent myself from doing something bad there are many that i was thinking of dying and this is happening only when someone makes sad and make me cry when they treat me bad you know i am a human too i have feeling although i try to bury them they are coming back on the surface just to remind me who i really am i have to stand high and find myself. today i feel sad moody i made a choice i decided to not to hang out with this person. what's the point of bleeding for who doesn't really worth it you end up losing yourself and become depressed when someone is so weak the other people will take advantage of your situation and then you will grow weaker than you were ever before you 'll fall on the floor.Again in the middle of nowhere lost and torn for good is there is a light that will lead this heart out of this way do you know where is it can you see it through this endless darkness that came inside here can you save it the last moment i see my hands bleed upon a red rose i see the thorns piercing me now i can see clearly that love can make a heart bleed and die slowly. Do you feel the pain killing you slowly and you can't do anything to stop it because you're so weak and defenseless in front of your depression. As the days go by i feel more and more lost in the darkness of sorrow so it is and will until i never know until is this is gonna last for my whole life or not.sometimes it is hard to find your way when you're lost for a long time it's like you walk with the eyes closed. A girl is staring out of the window it has already to get dark she feels so sad inside and it has so cold out she wants to go out and get lost in the darkness she wants to get freeze by the cold because her heart was so broken she just could'n't stop crying inside her anymore she heading into an unknown destination she didn't know where to go she was walking like a lost then she made a stop in a corner she sat there until the rain started to fall on her then she started to get cold and fell asleep on the wet sidewalk she said to herself i can't live like this anymore she closed her eyes and the next morning she opened her eyes only for once she looked at the sky for one last time and then she closed her sad eyes and never opened them again and her pain erased forever.i'm standing next to the river i see myself through the riverside i see my tears fall inside there i watch the blood falling slowly from my veins i have started already to bleed and the water in the river becomes red now i know that this would be the end of me i saw my life to have been erased in a minute i hold my breath and dived into the river. I got lost in the dark that i chose to live in and now i can't find the way out out of it
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